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Collapsing Like Houses of Cards

Thu Nov 19, 2009, 9:20 PM
  • Mood: Stuck
  • Listening to: Feed You With A Kiss -- Zeromancer
  • Reading: The Glass Castle
  • Watching: Danny Phantom
  • Playing: Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess
  • Eating: Pssh, I wish.
Feel free to ignore this. It's not a big deal. Serious.
In fact, it might be better! I'd rather not risk stressing you out! I just want to... I dunno... Let it out? Yeah. That might be it.
Do not concern yourselves with my petty emotions.
:heart:






Can you hear me now?



I want to scream.
I want to hate.
I'm not going to cry, though.
Because what good does that do?
I want to know WHY, and I'm the only one who can do that. Whining at people won't help me.
And I don't get it.
I get... Some sort of strange kick out of hating things. Maybe I'm just one of those people? I don't rightly understand it myself, but... I figure I should get this out.


When I'm happy, or satisfied with life, I feel... Lost. And my will to exist under any circumstance disappears. I just kinda. Wanna fade into the oblivion and have never existed. But when I'm angry... It's like some spark that fuels me has be re-lit, and I want to exist again, and not just that! I want to DO something with my life. I want to make meaning of the meaningless. But I also want to spit in the face of what I hate, as many do, I'm guessing. It's so bittersweet. I love it, and long for those things to be gone, all of them!

How can you stand there and deny it?
After all that we've been through...
How can you stand there and deny it?
Making a fool out of you...

Wish I could fake it like you do


Imagine that.


Right now is one those moments, of course, or I wouldn't be here. Just... Certain people, certain things, you know?

Plenty of time to make a perfect world
I will. I'm going to make a perfect world one day.
A world just for me. Where nobody will ever hurt! Where there's nothing to worry about!
And when I make my perfect world, I'm going to lock the door and throw away the key. Nobody will be able to bother me, ever.
And when the world outside is burning and everyone else is crying, I'll be safe and sound.
And they'll ask me, they'll say, "Please, let us in! We're sorry! Won't you forgive us?"
And I'll say...






No.

-- Kiwi

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Devious Info

  • Current Residence: Under your bed. D:
  • Interests: Anime, Manga, drawing.... Yeah. I have absolutely no life whatsoever.
  • Favourite movie: Howl's Moving Castle
  • Favourite band or musician: Changes daily.
  • Favourite genre of music: Depends on my mood.
  • Favourite artist: ALL YOU PEOPLES THAT I STALK.
  • Favourite poet or writer: Too many. TOO MANY TOO MANY'S! ;__;
  • MP3 player of choice: Uh. Whatever isn't broken and has a working battery. :|
  • Wallpaper of choice: Wallpaper.... .-.
  • Skin of choice: Iunno. Just. Go 'way.
  • Favourite game: Castlevania. :|
  • Personal Quote: "HOLY HOT POCKETS! O_O"
  • Tools of the Trade: A Chainsaw, a rainbow chicken, and an aquatic twilight pigeon. ;3

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:hexentanz: Ferrets ? you said F E R R E T S :lol: [link]

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Thank you for the watch 8D

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The prophecy shall be fulfilled
A looooooooooooooong awaited battle between good and evil.

Catnarok....
until then LongCat.
:iconkittycat01320:
No problem! Love the art! <3

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Not everybody loves Twilight, so stfu kthanks.
:iconyukkabelle:
:iconfrecklefaced29: Thank you :iconsparklesplz:

:heart:For supporting my work:heart:


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Marie-Agnès

:hexentanz: Ferrets ? you said F E R R E T S :lol: [link]

:iconmuttsy-chan-thefurry:
Thankies for the favs :D

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D: I'm in a box!
:iconkittycat01320:
You are most welcome. <3

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Not everybody loves Twilight, so stfu kthanks.
:iconbabyfox:
thanks for the fave!

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:iconkittycat01320:
It was well deserved. :3

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Not everybody loves Twilight, so stfu kthanks.
:iconlangstrumpf89:
Thanks a lot for the :+devwatch: <3

I really appreciate it :heart:

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"The greatness of a nation can be judged by the way its animals are treated."

-Mahatma Gandhi.
:iconkittycat01320:
Hee, you deserve it. *_* -Is in love with your art and characters and EVERYTHING.-

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Not everybody loves Twilight, so stfu kthanks.

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